the world is my stage

“We accept the love we think we deserve.”

—	Stephen Chbosky, The Perks Of Being A Wallflower

blurb.

I want you to cover me in kisses, I want you to lavish me in your love.
Tell me i'm the only one, forever.  
Feed me lies;  I'll eat them up, not leaving a crumb behind.
I''ll sell my soul for your love, I know it isn't much, but it's all I have.
You make my nightmares and dreams come true.  You make feel as if i'm floating.
You make me feel unblemished, a feeling I long for.
A feeling of perfection.
I want you to whisper sweet nothings in my ear, It's music for my empty soul.
I feel ageless around you, like a teenager who has fallin in love for the first time.
i would do anything to make you all mine.

love.

'I love you' means loving somebody more than you do yourself and never doubting it. It means never giving up on each other. It means getting lost in the depth of romance, all common sense no longer exists.  It means slow dancing in the kitchen after dinner.  'I love you' means loving somebody for all their imperfections. It means accepting someone for all the good and for all the bad. It means growing old together, It means forever. 

Sept 1rst

Woah, can't believe we're already in September.  

Time is moving way too fast.

I wanna stay young forever. 

P O I S O N

It's spreading throughout my body.

I am s c a t t e r e d, I am flawed, I am exposed.

I look around and I am surrounded by pride, envy, gluttony, lust, anger, greed, and sloth.  

it's running through my veins like poison.  

There is no escaping.

I hold my head up high as I pass up love because of pride.

I envy the person who is happily in love.

When I am in love, I want more than I already have.  
Am I in love with your shell or your soul? 

I don't want to share my love.   

I will not love until somebody loves me. 

I am the 7 deadly sins. 

Magic

"I am really a great liar, I can twist the truth and stretch it until it's forced into the shape I want it to be.  I should never be fallen in love with rather I should be despised.  I am able to weave my lies with a thread, just enough to make people wonder, to blur the truth." 


 I am able to make others believe in this fairytale ending as I sit in a dark empty room knowing our ending is far from happily ever after.   Words can be magic, you can hypnotize someone with 3 little words, words penetrate deep into the soul...therefore lying becomes easy.  You can make anyone do anything you want with just words.  The truth is just too hard, lies are just too easy. Lies even spill out of my mouth subconsciously, I can't help it.  It's to the point where I am unable to tell the difference between reality and fantasy.  I cannot tell what's real and what is a dream.  I am stuck in this fantasy world that will never be real.   A world full of lies, but it is a world that I love.

















love,

You

"Spending time with you is the greatest drug.  I feel relaxed and high yet energized and alive.  It’s the strangest feeling and I’ve never felt it before.  I want to feel like this all the time. "

Part 1..

So, recently i've been inspired to write.  and I know what you're thinking...So, before you ask, no I do not plan on making this a career.  My vocabulary and grammer suck way too bad.

I recently have had a lot of feelings bottled up and what not a better way then to share them with random people? also, I hear it's a great form of therapy and um we all know how much I need therapy. So,  if you don't want to read my bitching and wining then I suggest you exit out as fast as you can.